[Longing]
Time after time after time, the feeling starts off as a tiny growth, something that’s so small it can easily be ignored. Then it starts to grow. As time passes it turns into a huge monster that I can no longer support. Maybe I just long to be like those regular couples. Deep down inside. Those that cling onto each other 24/7. Naw. I wouldn’t want that. I wouldn’t want him to seem as if he didn’t care either. For the past 2 weeks we’ve gotten in and out of arguments. It’s the first time I’ve been able to be mad at him and actually show it. In the past, when things were kinda in the grey area, I couldnt’ say much. So here are the reasons I get ticked:
-When he comes to me in the morning. Talks for 5 minutes. Then turns and walks in the opposite direction without saying anything. He goes to class leaving me standing there like some friggin idiot. Obviously I know he’s going to class, yes. But come on.. you don’t just walk away unless you’re gonna come back 2 minutes later or something.
-When he plugs his music on, and I say something to him, he can’t hear me. Then I tell him if he didn’t have the tunes in his hear, he’d hear me. That put aside, he does it again. “I’m going” *no answer*.. “Ugh you can’t hear me”…….“I can hear you. I hear every word you say. You just never ask me anything so I have nothing to say back”
I wish I had said “Well sometimes it’d be nice to know that someone’s actually listening and I’m not talking to a wall”
Time after time after time…
